It’s been a few days since I’ve written. I’ve had some bad days and some good days. Today is a day I feel very blessed to be having. I slept for a solid 5.5 – 6 hours last night and awoke this morning with little to no anxiety. I spent some time with my husband yesterday alone for the first time since before the baby was born. That was fantastic. I really need to keep my focus on today. When I think of all the days ahead I get anxious and scared. I also tend to think of this phase as forever. It’s not forever. I do not like the baby phase at all. And that’s ok. I don’t have to like it. I do have to be responsible and find the best balance I can with caring for my baby and meeting some of my needs as well. It’s a one day at a time thing. God is also really helping. I asked for his help and he is answering my prayers. I am also wondering if the low level of medication is helping. I am just so grateful that I awoke this morning feeling ok and with a semblance of some form of serenity.